| All dressed in white
it is such a shame that i have not been able to make the weddings of all my close relatives, but tonight i did make it to one of my dads close relatives
and yes, i got fairly drunk while waiting for the food. it is not my fault the food took so long to come out
but when they played the video of the groom having to suffer from various (romantic) games before being able to meet his bride
and all i could think of was myself
it is no wonder I am single, and have been for the last year
and it was good to see joe, liz and anna, despite me being late
def looking forward to dinner tomorrow :D
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| 4000 miles away, doesn't necessarily mean out of sight, out of mind
jsut went through emails, all those sweet and loving emails - makes me wonder why I did not miss her more
but it is not too late for everything, I am glad-
not too late to embrace being part of a "one man wolf pack"
not too late to spend more time with my family, the side that I did not used to spend time; afterall there is this strong feeling of union when i see them - I am indeed a lone wolf in bris - a lone
not too late to have a crazy holiday, and everyone (most, really) come and spend a crazy dec/Jan with me
not too late for waffle - or at least I hope so... maybe it is the right thing to do, to let it brew - but I am always impatient.. |
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| I have under-appreciated Sundays for such a long time
Maybe its the fact that the end of Sunday leads to Monday, the beginning of a 5 day marathon
but on such a lovely sunday morning, I guess it takes a lot to dampen my spirits
Last night when I had to drive home at 2am after a LATE NIGHT kebab, i thought it would be hell to have to wake up at 7 for a mini roadtrip from southside to the airport
and when i did wake up, it was not the best feeling, as the sky was cloudy, and well, I was sleepy
When I got to pick up YC, and had a relaxing drive to the airport, where the sun finally came up and was shining beautifully, I knew it was going to be a good day
then I drove around Kelvin Grove / Milton / Rosalie to locate breakfast - which was harder than I thought considering I found NO sunday markets, due to my inferior knowledge of Sunday markets
but I finally located a small bakery in rosalie- which had an amazing ham cheese danish (ok, maybe it was not that amazing, but my ordering-danish-phobia usually prevents me from indulging in them) and a ice latte
and a bit of John Mayer when I was driving in the warm sun - I am sure going to miss this - the driving, and the lovely weather
would have been great to have had breakfast with someone - but who would I pick up from Southside, or along the way to the airport?
Maybe it is the flexibility and freedom that i enjoy
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and there is no better feeling that missing out on pancakes, but instead end up with waffles. belgium waffles
no matter what the context is :)
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| and I realise what I miss the most at times
the company
the little smile that she used to do just for me, the cute little dimple and the smile where her little canines would stand out and reminds me of sienna miller
but - there is no turning back
time to just take a deep breath and go on - before I suffocate from forgetting to breathe |
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| Just because there is mutual care does not mean it is meant to be
But before I even get there - when will I learn that just because there is care from one person doesn't mean it is always welcome
It is not the first time - but I fell for it again.
Sigh.
And just when I thought I was too self-centered lol
More reason to spoil myself this Xmas, if the boys don't make me spend all my cash on drinks...
Anything other than yes is no, anything less than stay is go.... |
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