| As I sat there, late, puffing, wondering why there is so little eye contact in this general direction
Watching the 2 min date, the "making it rain" act
And none of the above touched me
so it is possible to want something, but not feel like it is the only thing i want
confirmation is what it took me to open my tiny eyes, but when will I learn to listen?
Now there is something to look forward - but KH leaving is going to hurt
Yes, study comes first, of course. |
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| How do I do it?
just shamelessly pruing boyfriends away from the ladies.
Maybe its what being a boy school all your life does to you - you just become irresistibly good at male bonding
plus i am awesome :D |
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| the price of panicking less is eternal nerding. Having someone stay over and wake me up gently with my bloody sms tone does not help. the horrible cappuccino for breakfast did though
there goes the days of waiting for phone calls / sms that never come - now I just look at the shadows of my past self and wonder how I had done the same, or treated others the same. But now its just wondering how I managed while I watch others.
I believe I most probably slept on IS' couch when i should have been replying, his mother no less impressed with the amount of facial oil I produce. It did not help that he nearly beat me to death in his boxers at 7 30 in the morning because Doraemon makes a loud noise delivering my sms (ok maybe its worth dying at those situations)
Or I just realized my priorities but didn't know what to do. At least I am on the right path, as ashamed as I am. (OK FINE i am SHAMELESS) - but when you father did not understand - what could one expect from anyone else?
is it too early to plan my holidays? It sure is the only thing I look forward to. I guess I have picked up my act this year and I should not be living through so much panic and agony. hopefully. Not like I can make the same choices over again. I have AN ENTOURAGE WITH ME IN 852 YEAHHHHHHHH
thats right, no more lonely NYE with K. I even have a shaved monkey that I have trained to drink this time. Too bad the hairy monster cannot make it.
and yes I am still making peanuts this year, but it beats being nagged 24/7. And all their fish then are now humaoids, but I doubt any of you here catch my drift...
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i wish I went to Alvin's recital. Not like everyone I know invites me to a recital and gets me psyched about it.
But I swear someone got him flowers. Or was it for Orbitis?
And Alvin, if you are reading this, I never got to send you a postcard like you sent me. that was indeed the first postcard I have received under "stone cheung". I guess it stuck
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HTFU monkey boy. You know we will be there for you, at least we tell you what to do. And drown you with Hoe.........garden haha |
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| the decisions we make always rub off on us
for example the company I seek - leading to me being, rather frequently, the token asian (if I do not count the Indians - no offense, i love your food) at parties
and possibly explains why my chin fluff turns blonde, then red - (though this also seems to happen when I can't sleep, and think over things)
And I am stubborn - it took a while for me to realise, from my mistakes and those around me
- somethings are classic because there is some truth to it - but you just always want to be the unique little snow flake and prove yourself different - at least I do
Oh and I am not as tough as I thought I was - maybe as a social being, it is normal to be prone to outside influence. Why else is it called lending an ear? Backing to blacking thoughts out
Oh well. |
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| Maybe it would not hurt every now and then to remind [her] how pretty she looks - Jan Itor
things we take for granted, the immunities we gain from company of beautiful ladies
its either time to appreciate those around - or to meet more of them
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